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The Journey

This is my first non-poetry entry. It is a journal-like account of my experiences during my journey to Montana, and will hopefully give you an idea of what I encountered & gleaned from my time away.
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"You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me." (Psalm 139:5)

I recently returned from a journey that made quite an impact upon me. It was a journey in more ways than one; physically, it was 850 miles each way, and emotionally & spiritually it was also an adventure. When I first saw the invite to this Writers' Retreat, I was instantly intrigued and it was not long before I knew I must attend. Despite having a strong sense that I was supposed to go, I had many reservations & reasons to be anxious about going. It was way out of my comfort zone and not something I would normally do. First, there was the long drive: am I capable of making such a long trip alone, safely & how will it be, as I have never done it before? Second, in spite of my extroverted nature, I am usually shy, so going somewhere I've never been and doing so knowing no one else was certainly uncomfortable. Then there was the writing portion: could I really write for 6-8 hours a day, and then share what I'd written with these strangers? And yet I knew that this experience was made for me, and therefore made plans to attend regardless of my concerns. I knew God would bless me for my obedience, whatever shape these blessings took.

Before I even began my journey, I received signs & signals that this trip was in some ways, providence. There was the invitation itself - it was not given directly to me, rather I saw on Facebook that a friend had replied to the invite and so I explored the link. And on the day before I left home, as I sat at a stop light, the car in front of me had a Montana license plate cover; a small tidbit, but one I took to be meaningful just the same. As I began my drive east toward Montana at 2am, I hoped & prayed I could do this. Even a couple of hours into the journey, doubts plagued my mind and emotions. Then the first of several more occurrences began, which I felt were truly signs from God. The moon, just a thumbnail-shaped sliver, was low in the eastern sky, clear and leading me onward. Later, as I crested the hill into the Tri-Cities, the sun began to rise over the horizon; the tones of orange in the sky were a concrete reminder of God's abiding love for me. It was as if He was drawing me onward toward my destination, and I gained a renewed sense of energy & purpose as I drove. There was also the first red-tailed hawk of the morning, watching over me from a lamp post as I passed by (God has been using hawks to signal His presence to me for awhile); I felt a clear sense of protection over my trip.

Once in Montana, I was struck by the beauty of the landscape; the mountains, countryside and clear skies helped distract me from the length of the journey. At some point, I caught glimpse of a sign along the road that said "Clark Fork." I gave it little thought, except to assume it was the name for that fork of the river, and continued on. However, the further I got, the more that I noticed these signs, all saying "Clark Fork," and it struck me as a bit odd. Finally, after seeing no less than a dozen of these signs, I said aloud to myself (and ultimately God), "Ok, I see now. It's for me," to which God replied, "Of course it is." Then I noticed how beautiful the area around these signs was, and knew He was thinking, "Finally, you noticed" and rolling His eyes in amusement.

When I finally reached my destination, I was exhausted but also victorious. Now the second half of my journey would begin, and I would see what God really had in store for me & my writing here. I had hoped to get time to begin writing that day, but my arrival was later than I had anticipated; I simply began preparing for the days to come. The spiritual atmosphere was clear & palpable, which was reassuring and aided by Pam's deep intercession. It was easy to be inspired in this place, and I found there were several quiet nooks to be alone & let the Holy Spirit guide my pen. I had a couple of writing goals in mind for the weekend; most importantly, I wanted to be open to the Spirit's leading, and if I ended up simply worshiping and encountering God, that would be more than enough for me.

Ultimately, the weekend was surely a time of just that: encounters with God. He met me when & how I needed Him; sometimes through the flutter of the butterflies or the sound of the raging river, others by inspiring a piece I can be proud of, and still others through the prayers of a new-found friend. In the end, I saw the box I had put myself into as a writer, and realized I could & wanted to break free. I would stop labeling myself in certain ways, saying I do not, cannot or am not; instead I would allow God to move in and through me however He wants to. I do not know what that looks like, especially in regards to my writing, but it is most definitely a gift of true freedom.

"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom." (2 Corinthians 3:17)

6/21/2012

Essence

Fall upon me,
With fire & power;
Fill me wholly,
In this place, in this hour.
For the freedom that you bring
Is unlike any other;
Your praises will I ever sing,
To my God who is also my Lover.
I need you within me
To survive another day;
Your endless grace & mercy
Surround me, I pray.
For without your abiding presence
I am absolutely nothing;
I long to feel your essence
Flow through me like a spring.

6/17/2012

Beloved

I belong to my Beloved
And His desire is for me;
In a love song meant for no other,
He serenades this heart passionately.
He goes before & walks alongside
As this life tarries onward,
My authentic self I need not hide
For He already knows I'm absurd.
I can share with Him all my worries & woes,
And stand in awe at His works;
Endless compassion He always shows
Even as He chuckles at my quirks.
He is my closest friend & biggest fan,
My first & greatest love;
Yet I still desire a human man,
So can someone give Him a shove?
Our relationship is not quite normal,
But I wouldn't have it any other way;
And even thought I am not often formal,
He is forever & always Yahweh.

6/16/2012

Unseen

When I feel unseen,
Ignored & passed over,
I hide away and dream,
Keeping my composure
So that none will see my tears
Falling in the night;
I hide my pain & fears,
Staying further out of sight.
Then a hand reaches down,
From my Savior above
Lifting my heart from the ground,
Wrapping me in love.
And I know that He sees me,
I am visible to Him;
He values me completely,
Holds my heart within.
So I am never truly alone
In spite of how it may feel;
Jesus' arms are ever my home
And His love is oh, so real.

5/6/2012

Sufficient

You are sufficient
Because you are the ultimate
Example of a man,
And with you I can
Be joyful & fulfilled
Because that is your will
For all of my days;
And I will give you praise
Because of all you are
Always near & never far,
Within me and without;
I have no doubt
That you are enough
Even when things are tough
To cope with & bear;
You have always been there
To comfort & protect,
Teach and correct
Me, the one you love
And I am sure of
Your faithfulness to me;
It's all I'll ever need.

4/26/2012

Doors

I will open my heart to you;
Every door to every room.
I have kept them closed,
So I am not exposed;
Yet you long to explore
What is behind each door.
And so I swing them open wide,
Nothing will I hide
From your loving face
And your overwhelming grace.
For when I am transparent,
Your love creates more than a dent
In the armor I often wear,
Gives you a chance to repair
My scrapes and fractures;
It is all of me you capture
When I hold nothing back
And allow you to unpack
Who I am created to be,
So I can live in complete authenticity.

5/6/2012

Fine

No one ever sees
The pain inside of me.
I cover my feelings,
Even when I'm reeling
From all this life brings.
But deep within my core,
I can never ignore
These nagging thoughts
That plague.
I must always be strong,
No room have I to long
Or break down in tears.
From others I hide
What lies inside,
And in secret I weep.
For in reality, I am not "just fine;"
My heart is brekaing
A moment at a time.

11/5/2011

Rearranged

I lay my heart down,
At your feet I fall;
In your love I will drown,
When I hear your voice call.
Your throne room is holy,
It is the most intimate place;
I will be near to you only,
Let me gaze upon your face.
When I am this close to you
I cannot help but be changed,
You always speak what is true,
My walls you have rearranged.
So I will give you my everything,
All that I have is yours;
My spirit and soul I bring,
In return my life you'll restore.

1/29/2012

Handprint

The wonder of your creation,
Displaying your imagination,
Calls out to the heart of me;
I love to dwell in your majesty.
It takes my breath away
Watching nature dance & play;
Your handprint is everywhere,
The beauty nearly too hard to bear.
So I take it all in,
Let every detail penetrate my skin;
And wrap myself in the glory
Of this world created for me.

4/25/2012

Ablaze

Not enough words have I
To tell of your matchless ways;
My Helper & Adonai,
I'll praise you all my days.
My spirit rises & dances before
The glorious throne
Of my Friend my Lord.
My heart cries out to you my Lover,
More is ever my desire;
The depths of me you uncover,
Set me ablaze with holy fire.
You are my Creator & King,
Yet you stepped off your throne;
Salvation & life you bring
So I will worship you alone.
And I will attempt to capture in words
How much love I have for you,
Until all I encounter have heard
That your love and grace are true.

3/19/2012

Until

You know who I am,
You guide me every day;
I know you have a perfect plan
And will reveal it in your way.
Until that time comes,
I will try to be patient
And not run away from
My current location.
In these moments that I
Feel stuck or afraid,
All I can do is rely
On He who is never delayed.
My faith will hold strong,
My hope is ever firm
Even though the wait seems long,
And my heart continues to yearn.
Your heart is always for me,
You know my deepest desire;
In the meantime it is you I will seek
Not believing whispers of the liar.
I can only allow the Lover of my soul
To mold me during this time;
Complete the work and make me whole
So I am ready for the one who is mine.

4/25/2012

Press

You say that now is my time,
To walk in your blessings,
And I declare that I am pressing
Into the promises you have made;
My hope in you will not fade.
So I will cry out for my deepest desire;
No more of me do you require
Than to embrace my power & authority
For I know the plans you have for me.
They arrive in your appointed season,
Often beyond my understanding or reason;
Yet never late or incomplete,
So I lay my motives down at your feet.
And when you call on me to act,
You remind me I never lack
The strength and ability
To claim the promises spoken over me.

3/22/2012

Shelter

I run into your arms
When all seems lost,
You keep me from harm,
No matter how great the cost.
And when the storm has passed,
And debris is ever scattered,
You are always steadfast,
For I am the one who mattered.
So even when no storm is raging,
I will shelter myself in you;
Because you are here always waiting
And your love for me is true.

4/22/2012

Ominous

Ominous black clouds
Roll across the sky;
Rain on the roof pounds
As wind blows leaves awry.
Then just as swiftly,
The sun's rays break through,
Earth's features seen crisply
For all feels fresh & new.
And on the distant horizon
A rainbow appears in light,
All creation awake & enlivened
As birds resume their flight.
So when the clouds return and darken
The skies above yet another day,
Let us not feel gloomy & disheartened,
For we know they will never stay.

4/5/2012

Almighty

With one word you command
The wind & waves to be still,
You are Commander, Creator and
The One who seeks me until.
Then I turn toward your face,
You look on me with wonder,
Your heart full of grace,
With one glance your spell I'm under.
My life is forever altered
By just that one glance;
With you my heart cannot falter,
As we begin our great romance.
And still you are almighty
Even as you call me beloved;
You are the God of land and sea
As well as He who descended.

4/22/2012

Watching

Before I ever looked up,
You were watching me;
For love you bore my cup,
Through your death I am set free.
No more guilt, done away with shame
Your blood was shed to save;
It was your pleasure to take all my blame
Breaking the power of the grave.
Such joy can I have in your suffering
Because I know the story's end;
Grace & mercy your risen body brings,
The hearts of the broken you will mend.
I'm alive because you saw inside
My lonely and desperate heart;
You welcome me in with arms open wide,
Offering me a brand new start.

4/6/2012

Triumph

You arrived in triumphant refrain,
"Hosanna, Hosanna," God save!
And when you come, the whole earth shakes;
I am set free, my chains your love breaks.
With rejoicing and loud shouts of praise,
Our hearts and hopes you will ever raise;
For you entered those city gates
And rode toward your chosen fate,
Becoming our awaited Messiah,
Rising again to walk beside us.
Hosanna you are & will always be,
Walking this earth to save a sinner such as me;
And I know I am the one you love & adore,
It was my life you came to restore.

4/1/2012

Broken

You were broken
So I could be made whole;
My heart is ever open
To the blood that cleanses my soul.
Fill me up with your saving power,
That I may give it away;
This is the time, now is the hour
Bring your deliverance, I pray.
The pain that you suffered
So that I would be healed,
You willingly offered
Then your Spirit revealed.
More gifts now abound
For all to recieve,
Through the cross they are found
When at first I believed.

3/22/2012

Sink

As I fix my eyes upon you,
I sink deeper into
The well of your love & promise;
A place of surrender and bliss
Where you reveal my destiny.
And in the depths all I can see
Is your heart poured out,
Leaving no room for doubt
That you long to be mine.
I see now that more is your design;
More of you within my heart & soul,
Because more of you makes me whole.
And so farther & deeper I will sink,
Until you have brought me to the brink
Of a passionate Lover's story
That conveys the power and glory
You have always shown;
For your heart is my only home.

Marathon

I do not know where I am heading,
But you always know the way;
This road is long and I am getting
Too exhausted to walk another day.
I need your arms to carry me
As this lifetime moves along,
And your wisdom to ever so gently
Wrap my heart in your great love song.
With you by my side, guiding me through
I have just enough strength to continue
On this, my marathon journey
Toward my purposed destiny.

2/26/2012

Haunted

You haunt me;
Threaten to take me over.
You stalk me;
Chasing me through the day
And deep into the night.
You see when I am weak,
And you are ready to pounce;
You never go away,
Even when I cry out for relief.
You will swallow me whole,
If I give in, even a little.
You are relentless.
You.
Are.
Pain.

3/10/2010

Meadow

Out of the desert and into the rain,
My soul begins to feel again.
So many years I've spent wandering,
Seeming aimless in my suffering.
Yet now I can see hope on the horizon,
Colors bright, and passions enliven.
This path will still hold great mystery,
But I can carry on with eyes to see.
My spirit afresh with joy & peace;
The grip of despair must release.
I depart the desert, once my home,
Walking into the meadow no more to roam.

3/17/2012

Multitude

My heart cannot contain
The extent of my love for you;
I cry out with joyful refrain
Fervently worshiping God who is true.
The wind & waves at your command bow,
The sun & moon they rise at your will;
All your creation cries aloud
While the songs of my heart refuse to be still.
You are my Savior & King,
Also Father & Friend;
Sin has lost all its sting,
Victory yours at the battle's end.
No one can fathom
The great wonder of your love;
For you even clothed Adam
And spilled your precious blood.
I have a multitude of reasons
To praise your great name;
Just like the changing of the seasons,
I will never be the same.

3/15/2012

Vow

I will not always get it right,
Not nearly all of the time;
I also vow to never lose sight
Of His mission, simultaneously mine.
In word & in deed, I seek to hold fast
To the actions He set forth by example;
I won't put myself first, rather be last,
In His name no heart will I trample.
Lovingkindness & grace I show to all
Regardless of who they are,
Compassion & humility always my call
Even when motivation feels far.
I want my life to simply echo
That of the One who saved me;
To be someone others trust & know,
Always acting honorably.
And as He never turned a single one away,
Neither will I withhold my grace;
I walk in His shadow every day,
Hoping to show others His loving face.

3/12/2012

Become

You see not only who I am,
But who I can become;
For me you have a great plan,
You'll see it through until I'm done.
All of my failures, all my faults,
I am so undeserving
Of your love covering it all.
You can do immeasurably more
Than I can imagine,
So I call on you Lord
To ignite all my passions.
You know my gifts;
You placed them in my heart,
Help my focus to shift
As I [begin to] play my part.
I long to bring you glory,
Using what you have given
And to be a servant worthy
Of this blessed life I am living.

3/5/2012

Wholeheartedly

To love them all, that is my call.
There's the lonely & broken
And those who have spoken
Of heartache & shame,
Walked through the flames.
The downtrodden & disheveled,
Even outcasts & rebels
Need a love that fills
To counteract a world that kills.
I open my heart without hesitation,
Offering acceptance instead of condemnation;
For I am made to love wholeheartedly,
It is part of how God created me.

2/17/2012

Promise

My heart is empty
As I wait for you.
Yet strangely full,
As only He can do.
I lie awake upon my bed,
Promises of you
Running through my head.
How & where I do not know,
Yet peaceful am I
Until you show.
How strange it is,
To long so much,
Waiting patiently to feel your touch.
And also to be so satisfied
Because I am already
Another's bride.

1/28/2010

Creation's Song

Nothing & no one is greater,
Than you, my awesome Creator;
I can see your love written on the skies,
A private language between you and I.
Your grace made known in the flight of birds,
Passion conveyed in your eloquent words;
I feel your power as waves crash on the shore,
Your creation displays it is me you adore.
You hang the moon & number the stars,
The soothing rains heal my scars;
As autumn leaves change their shades,
My heart rejoices in the sun's warm rays.
When the trees cry out in joy & wonder,
Bow before my God who speaks with thunder,
I know I will never be the same
As all of creation shouts your name.

2/15/2012

(Untitled)

When you are near,
All must bow before you
In awe & honor & delight.
Your Kingdom opens up
And Heaven melds with our earth.
In these moments,
All things are possible;
Sicknesses healed,
Pains disappear,
Eyes & ears opened,
Death overcome.
Your power is greater
Than any other;
Your incredible acts
Of pure love & grace
Bless those who ask.
And Freedom comes,
When Heaven meets earth.

10/16/2011

Guest Post

I was "chatting" with my brother via facebook last night, and he mentioned my niece Caroline had written a prayer earlier that day. She regularly goes to be alone & write, including having written her "autobiography" and a summary of the Easter story that are incredible for someone who is only 7 years old. This one also bears sharing, as it is both childlike & mature, innocent & deep, and echoes what is within the hearts of many, myself included.


Caroline's prayer (verbatim, with her own spelling errors ;)):

"Lord, out of all You gave me, I love my family best. I try to always put You first on my list of best things. We shouldn't make anything more importent, for Your and Your Son are best. I love You more then any fun thing that I like to do. May You let me be a saint, for that is one of the most holy things that I want to be. Please help me Lord to follow You always. Amen."

2/5/2012, Caroline J. Clark, 7 years old 
 

Still

You are still holy,
Even when I am not;
When I am angry,
Down & out,
When I want to just give up.
You are still loving
When my heart is so ugly,
And there is no good reason
To let me into yours.
You are still powerful,
Even when I try to take over,
Unyielding,
And make my own way 
Through this world.
You are still Everything,
When I try to replace you,
Forget you, or leave you out.
For you are perfect and true,
And I need you, still.

12/15/2009

My Pain

My pain is deep,
Threatens to overtake me,
Body & soul.
The anguish I feel
Courses through my every vein;
It is a part of who I am.
I cry out in the night,
The tears flow unabated.
My body racked with sorrow
Sadness & longing,
My mind overwhelemed
And my thoughts garbled.
I run, looking for hope renewed
And words of comfort.
My tears released,
I sleep;
Only to awaken,
Another day ahead
Filled with the pain,
My constant companion.

7/23/2009

Satisfied

You are not merely enough
To satisfy me,
But beyond what I need
Or what I want.
You are, in fact,
Too much for me to handle;
You overflow within my heart,
Filling me with everything
I could ever want or ever need.
So, all I can do is drink you in,
Allow you to fill every crevice
And every empty space.
Then when I am completely satisfied,
And too full to bear, 
I will ask for more and drink in
Your life, your love, your power
Until I can stand it no more.
Then I am & forever will be
Completely & utterly satisfied.

9/7/2011

The Valley

Things don't grow
On the tops of mountains;
Instead they flourish
In the valleys.
The grass green,
The plants lush,
Vibrant & colorful.
They tell of life,
Rich and full.
They are evidence of seasons;
Hot & cool,
Wet & dry,
Sunny  & shadowed.
Yet here life flows;
No land is barren
In the valley.


3/7/2011

My Call

I was conflicted for a couple of weeks about posting this poem. It is deep, raw, real and potentially volatile. It is very important to me, however, and I feel it expresses well something God has recently made clear to me is a call upon my life. I love how it turned out, and after spending some time holding it close to my heart, I have decided it's time to post it and allow others to read it and hear yet another facet of my heart. I hope you will enjoy it and hear & feel the emotion and sentiment behind it; if need be, sit with it awhile and let it resonate within you as I did. :) 
[Also, I must preface it by saying it is not about any person in particular, rather many women.]

My Call

She is lonely & despondent,
Frightened and ashamed,
Because others have judged harshly
Without understanding her pain.
Years spend in hiding
And wondering who she is,
When she finally finds an answer
They say she cannot be His.
Ironic, is it not,
That escaping one closet
Sends her into another,
To church in solitary confinement?
She too, deserves to feel God's love,
To experience fellowship & touch;
To join a congregation and sing,
Is acceptance asking too much?
I am called to be His hands & feet,
To love all of God's people;
So I open my arms and my heart
To she who has suffered such evil.
I can show her my Jesus,
Who is so different than religion,
Loves her unconditionally
And sees her with His vision.
The God of all redemption
Who bestows mercy & grace,
Calls her His daughter,
Looks lovingly on her face.
And so I will seek her out
To be her steadfast friend;
I'll care for her as my Savior would
And help her injured heart mend.


1/12/2012

My Fill

I drink you in
And receive all you have for me.
With my mouth gaping,
I take my fill
Until the Living Water of your love
Overflows,
And runs down my chin.
I need not strive
Or make any human effort,
Beyond opening my mouth
To your refreshing water
That you freely give 
To refresh my soul. 
Your water runs through me,
Into my marrow
Taking residence in every cell;
Your life flows within me,
And I am forever filled.

11/20/2011 

Who I Am

I am me, and I will not apologize
For who I am, how I feel,
Or what I am called to do.
I am not perfect, always open to change,
To become wholly who I am meant to.
I may be loud, & sometimes brash,
But I am also sensitive, and often unsure.
I worry I'm not brave enough
And cover my fears with humor;
I am loyal to a fault, and long to be noticed.
All of these traits make up who I am,
Good, bad or indifferent.
I can only be who I am now,
While growing into who I am destined 
To become.

1/22/2012

(Untitled)

You stand behind me
And you go before me.
You called me to be powerful,
A daughter of the King.
Your holy blood runs through me,
Authority is mine.
I will no longer
Watch from the sidelines,
But I will walk in your footsteps,
Walk in your power.
Step into
All you have created me to do;
Give away your gifts
And show others your glory.

8/29/2009 

Set Apart

I have been set apart
By my Creator.
Set apart
For His purposes
And pleasure.
Set apart
To bring Him glory and honor.
To do His will,
To seek His face,
To live a life of love.
Set apart
For intimacy with a King,
So pure & passionate;
Nothing else compares.
He gives me blessings & favor,
For I have been
Set apart.

9/3/2009

Feeble

I am small and insignificant,
Feeble and afraid.
I need someone to lend a hand,
To save me from the grave.
I do not know what is to come,
Or how I will survive;
I can only see one step ahead,
This life is an unpredictable ride.
I am confident of just one thing,
Sure of oh, so little;
I am cared for by a king,
Loved by He who knows it all.
By my side, holding my hand,
I feel I can face a new day;
For I trust in His perfect plan
And believe He knows the way.

1/15/2012

Outrageous Love

Outrageous Love
Comes from an
Outrageous lover.
It is love that captures,
Enraptures,
And fills me wholly.
Outrageous love
Heals the sick,
Raises the dead,
Mends the broken.
Outrageous love
Cannot be bought or earned,
Only freely given
By He who IS
Outrageous love.

9/11/2010

Tears

My tears fall
In sadness & longing.
They leave a trail;
One that will end
In all I have hoped for.
I have sowed much,
So I will reap greatly.
These tears do not say
"I do not believe;"
Instead they are saying
"The wait is hard."
And yet I still hold on
To the hope I have,
And I make it my home,
Through the tears.


9/5/2010

Perfect One

You are the perfect one,

The only one

For me.

Everything you are,

Invites me into your presence.

You smile,

And my heart melts.

The sound of your voice

Leaves me craving more.

You always find me,

Bring me to our special place

And rescue me

From this lonely world;

Rescue me from myself.

You offer yourself to me,

Giving me your heart;

I cannot help but enter in,

Into a love created

Only for me,

Only with you.

5/13/2010

Cauterize

It's so dark and alone here
With no one to touch,
I hold back the tears
Until it becomes just too much.
How long have I cried out
In longing and in pain?
I even scream and shout,
But it's always the same.
Every day turns into the next;
My heart keeps breaking,
Leaving a hole in my chest.
And still few can recognize
How deeply I am hurting,
For I bandage & cauterize
So I am nobody's burden.

12/24/2011

Romance

You romance me
My Lover, my Jesus.
Every day your heart
Pursues mine.
Your romance
Is written on the clouds,
Spread across the skies,
And sings on the winds.
You know my heart
Unlike any other,
And speak directly to it
With lover's passionate words.
You long for me,
Seeking me out;
And I long for you
To hold my heart always,
My Lover, my Jesus.

10/18/2010

The Story of Us

The story of us,
Just you and I,
On this journey
That is forever.
I run, you chase me.
I fall, you catch me.
I cry, you hold me.
I ask, you answer me.
I seek, you find me.
I pour out, you fill me.
I collapse, you lift me.
I rejoice, you laugh with me.
Together we walk,
The destination does not matter.
Because with just you and I
This story never ends.

1/31/2011

Invisible

You know me,
All of me,
And you call me
By name.
You see me
When I feel invisible
And I don't know
My place.
You call me important,
When purpose escapes me
And insignificance surrounds.
You write the words
That invade my spirit;
The cries of my heart
Only you can hear.
You know me, you always have.
And through you,
I will be me.

11/12/2010

This Year?

As another year
Comes to an end,
I cannot help wonder
What is around the next bend?
Will this be the time,
When hope is fulfilled,
Or another year of waiting, still?
I have long fought
For these dreams to come true,
Will my battle end
And will I find you?
I can only pray
With hope & expectation,
Waiting for the day of my celebration.